Why I Started Rush Family Fiber: A Story of Anxiety, Yarn, and Learning to Rest

A few years ago, if you'd told me I'd someday run a small business built around slowing down, I would have laughed — probably while running around trying to do five things at once. I was in a season of real anxiety and depression, the kind that makes even ordinary days feel heavy. I didn't know how to rest. I'm not sure I believed I was allowed to.

A Hook, a Skein, and a Little Bit of Quiet

Crochet found me almost by accident. A friend handed me a hook and a skein of yarn and said, "Just try it." I didn't expect much — I certainly didn't expect it to become part of how I healed. But there was something about the repetition of it. Loop, pull through, loop, pull through. My hands had something to do, which meant my mind finally had permission to stop racing.

I started keeping my Bible open on the table beside my yarn. I'd read a verse, sit with it, and let my hands keep moving while it settled into me. Psalm 46:10 became a quiet anchor: "Be still, and know that I am God." I wasn't just making coasters and dish rags in those days — I was practicing stillness, one stitch at a time, in a season when stillness felt impossible.

Rest Isn't Something You Earn

Here's what I had to relearn, slowly: rest isn't a reward for finishing everything on your list. You don't have to earn rest. God doesn't ask you to prove yourself before He restores you — Psalm 23:3 says He restores my soul, not because I've earned it, but because that's who He is. Crochet became my reminder of that truth every single week. Sitting down with yarn in my hands was never really about the finished project. It was about letting myself be still long enough for Him to meet me there.

If You're Tired Today

That's the whole reason Rush Family Fiber exists. Not to sell you another thing to be good at, but to hand you something I needed myself: permission to slow down. You don't have to be perfect to rest. You don't have to be experienced to create. If your hands are tired and your soul is more tired, I made something for exactly that.

The Beginner's Crochet Coaster Kit was designed to be the gentlest possible on-ramp — no experience required, just a hook, some yarn, and about as much time as it takes to sit with a cup of tea and breathe. It's a small project on purpose. Sometimes the smallest thing is exactly what a tired soul needs to come back to rest.

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Wherever you are today — whether you've never picked up a hook or you've been crocheting for years — I hope you know you are more special to God than you could ever imagine. Slow down. Create. Rest in Him.